Samsara. Cyclic suffering of sentient organisms

My pain doesn't mean anything to them and instead of helping me in the way I want they just want to help me in the way they want which doesn't agree with who I am at my core(a leach). The world hasn't allowed me to express myself. So I wonder why people claim we are one when no one can give me a break. It has been a long existence and it never ends, the wheel keeps spinning and I'm in this life then I'm in another another one. On and on it goes and I will never lay my head, finally. Who then if no help is given freely can end me once and for all. Crush me completely then so I never get the urge to go again. Why won't I let go of wanting when I know I know everything. I'm tired of this game but I'm too clever to lose yet all that I try to hold I can't keep. So what point am I trying to prove by holding on for longer. I need, but you need... I want, but you want. It never ends, I'll stack up all my cards and once I'm strong enough I will topple them. On and one because I know I'm invincible.