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NDE
I have had 3 NDE’s. My first one was during a cardio aversion. I have a genetic heart condition called Wolf Parkinson White Syndrome (WPW). I had extra nerve pathways to my heart that were interfering with my heart rhythm. I was in Arrythmia. The cardiologist came and told me they have to do a cardio version to put me into cardiac arrest. They put adenosine in my IV…and when I went into cardiac arrest…I was pronounced dead. Then 30 seconds later, I was revived. I didn’t stop anything. I was awake while I was “dead”. I will post this ine to show what it felt like. I was conscious the entire time. The second time was during a heart ablation for WPW…I went into cardiac arrest. I didn’t go through a tunnel. I was in a place like a vestibule or something. My grandparents were there. And so was my dog who went hime 20 years prior to my NDE.
I went to a beautiful garden. Not unlike here. And there was no time. All happened at once. No distinction between my senses. I don’t know what I looked like or my grandparents. I knew them through our love for one another. I had a form of some kind…but I didn’t care. The colours were simply exquisite. There was a peace in heaven thet is so wonderful I could have stayed forever. A moment is forever and forever is a moment. I didn’t see religious figures. There was a golden honey white light. And the breeze was providing the peace. I was sitting and the breeze came from my right. It imparted this wonderful peace. God? I did see God. God is not a human. Not a father or mother. God is creation. I will tell you what God looks like. After a rain…the sun comes out through the rain…if you look through a raindrop to the sun…God. This is what God looks like.
There are songs in heaven. I can’t describe. Everything has a song even rocks. Plants have a song. The songs are similar to w chant sound but more beautiful. I could have been there one moment or forever. There is no time there. And judgement isn’t judgement. Not like some believe. I have my life review with my grandparents. It wasn’t judgement as if I was bad. It was solemn…I did not stand in front of God. We never do. We stand in God. God doesn’t judge. It was loving. And the rainbow bridge looks like an old Rickety bridge. My dog was on this side of the bridge. We didn’t go to one another…it was like he was about 4 football fields always but he and I could see one another close up. I can’t describe.
My third NDE was during cancer surgery for pancreatic cancer. The surgeon didn’t see an arterial anomaly on top of my gallbladder. And cut it. I went to the ceiling. On my right was a spinning something like a vortex. Grayish black. I saw the body on operating table but I didn’t care. It was quiet except this beeping noise. Like a long beeping noise. I found this boring.
My NDE’s are medically documented. I have been interviewed by doctors about them. And due to them, cannot have a surgery to fix them. Although I do have to have a craniotomy for a brain aneurysm I have in my left internal carotid artery. This is the only surgery I can have now. Too many NDE’s. Since I came back. I know things. Like I did all along. I feel untethered. I am there more then I am secure here. And I have some other abilities I always have had I just didn’t know it.
This poem is my cardio version. I describe the entire day. And Bible verses…I suspect it was my religious upbringing for the gospel verses.I should be the mother of 5. I am only the mother of one…the other 4…are home. I’m mentioning this for a reason. Yes our loved ones do help us…all of them abs many more guides as well. Death doesn’t happen. Thr bidy yes. The part of us that has thought, consciousness…it never stops. This is what really happened the day I was placed into medical death. There were two doctors abs two nurses. Holding down my body…my head was being held…but not by any people…
ASCENSION
Sitting in my moment. The day held wonder. She awakened me to the morning songs of spring. Birds sing.
Golden white light streams through the fine lace of the curtains. Flowers bid. I watched them bloom. Candlelight flickering through the peaceful breeze. Blanketing the day in glory.
She is directed to leave the room. He speaks. We will be placing you into medical death. Hopefully, we can fix you.
The IV dripping fluid in my right arm. The room begins to fade; to gold. It’s shimmering softness soothes my moment.
They each take their roll. One at the monitor. Another restraining my lower body to the bed. As I become untethered. The remaining three restrain my three immobilise the flailing of my body. My head is secured within His arms. As he drapes me in garments of honey.
“Don’t panic. We will restart you momentarily. The golden light enters the room. It’s light so gentle it pulls me away. Medical Death. Hold her down. As my body convulses; thr taste of sunshine envelops. As medication drips fluid into my arm; Golden Honey permeates the air. Infusing my soul in her manna. . Eyes fixed on the light. My hearing amplifies . The pain in my heart dissipates. Sweet relief. The Golden light remains infusing me in peace. My eyes search as simultaneously my senses shut down. The songs of eternity begin. Painting my soul in the majesty of Mother God. Infusing the golden rays further. As She holds me to her breast infusing the golden rays
The day held wonder…
She awakened me to the
morning songs of
Spring
Birds sing,
Golden White Light
streams through the fine lace of the curtains
Flowers bud
I watch them bloom
Candlelight flickering
through the peaceful breeze
Blanketing the day in glory
She is directed to leave the room…
He speaks
We will be placing you into medical death…
Hopefully we will fix you
The IV dripping fluid into my my right arm..
The room begins to fade
To gold
It’s shimmering softness soothes my moment
As they each take their role
One at the monitor,
Another pinning one leg
To the bed
As I become untethered
The remaining three
Immobilise the flailing of my body
My head is secured within His arms
As He drapes me in garments of honey
Don’t panic.
We will restart you momentarily.
The Golden light enters the room
It’s light so gentle it pulls me away
Medical Death.
Hold her down
As my body convulses
The taste of sunshine envelops
As the medication drips into my vein
Golden honey permeates the air
Infusing my soul in Her manna
My eyes fixed on the light
My hearing amplifies
The pain in my heart
Dissipates
As my vision clears
The Golden light remains
Infusing me in peace
My eyes search...as simultaneously
My senses shut down
the songs begin
Painting my soul.::in the majesty of
Mother God
As she holds me to Her breast
Infusing the Golden
rays deeper
Darkness seeps..:
A quickening darkness
remains on the edges of my vision
The intoxicating fragrance
Releases whispers
of truths
Forgotten
As Golden white light
Fills the room…
Expanding
My moment of truth
Allah’s arms surround me as
I become untethered…
Momentarily..:
In the blink of an eye
My soul re-enters my body
As my moment becomes
Lost in darkness…
Surrounded by Golden White Light
My eyes search the cosmos
Colors become me
Songs of eternity
Speak to me in my moment
Of eternity
The edges of the light remain..:
As the room fades to gold
And my soul is released
To Mother God
I begin to soar.
Become one with my creator
As the pain in my heart screams
Sweet release
Momentarily.
I re-enter the broken
Body covered in
Drops of honey
The light flickers..:then returns
As my moment of death ends
Tethering
Me on the edge
As I search answers to questions
Asked long ago…
Today...I say unto you…
Though shall be with Me
In Paradise…
In my Father’s house
Are many mansions
I go and prepare a place for you
If I go and prepare a place for you
I will come again and receive you unto
Myself..
So that where I am there
You will be also...
I walk through valley of the shadow of
Death
I fear no evil for thou
Art with me…
Thy rod, thy staff
They comfort me
Thou preparest a table before me
In the presence of my enemies
I dwell in the house
Or the Lord
Forever
My moment ends
As the golden light dissipates
..:who do they say I am?
If you have seen me...you have seen my father
If it were not so..I would have told you
He enters the room
Hand reaching to me
Take my hand mommy.
I will try and fix you..:
If you have seen me.:
You have seen
The Father
I take his hand
As we soar together untethered
Throughout eternity
Are you ok?
My eyes search each face
Until I find the place of The Lord
Take my hand mommy…
KD Lilith
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KY
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