I don’t know why things happen the way that they do, and I never know what’s going to happen next. Perhaps this job will benefit my life in ways I could never predict. Maybe it’ll keep me where I’m at, or make things worse, I just don’t know. The thing is, though, once I start to move past outcomes I can be more present to and flexible with what’s happening.

 can just enjoy learning to use the espresso machine at my new job rather than worrying about what people think of my new job choice. I can practice gentleness around my mental health, remaining non-judgmental when I have a difficult day. I can do this instead of thrashing against what is, letting my mind carry me to dreams of what things could be and being angry about how things are.

I can work with whatever emotions come up, knowing that it’s all the path. I can’t prevent life from happening and I can’t always force what I want to take place. What I do have control of is l how I react to everything and today I’m trying to have a “maybe” attitude.

Lastly, I was reminded by being knocked down by my job and mental health that the human spirit is wildly resilient. I got back up; I did it very slowly, but I did it.