GS YT

POEM BY GS DISCIPLE 

It’s Okay

Waking up happens for me
and suddenly I am here again
inside a body
inside a world.

The first thought rises:
Oh no.
Once again I have woken up.

Then guru voice comes and says,
“Do what you feel you should do.”
I bow down to God
for sending me back into this prison.

And I tell myself:
Now I don’t want to do anything,
not even get out of bed.

Yet the body rises.
I find myself moving,
answering nature’s call
I did not make.

I say, It’s okay.
I didn’t choose this.

Then hunger comes,
hands reach for food
and eating happens.
And again I say,
It’s okay.
This too is not in my control.
But now I don’t want to do anything.

Then thoughts appear,
and with them work.
I watch myself doing,
deciding,
acting.

I say again,
It’s okay.
I can’t control this either.
But now I don’t want to do anything,
really.

Then tiredness arrives.
I find myself resting.
Then boredom follows,
and suddenly there is walking,
singing,
dancing—
life entertaining itself.

Slowly I see it:
Just as I cannot control myself,
the universe cannot control itself either.

Evening falls on its own.
Night comes without asking.

I whisper,
It’s okay.
I couldn’t control the day,
but now I don’t want to do anything.

Then sleep arrives.
Body fades.
World disappears.

And one last thought remains:
It’s okay.
I can’t control this either.

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